||[Jun. 26th, 2007|09:53 am]
The summer is just starting and already it feels as if it's over. I'm not enjoying it, I hate sleeping in and feeling like shit the rest of the day, I kind of wish I had somewhere to be at 7:30 in the morning. This lounging period- before I work isn't working for me. |
I'm in no way ready to leave. Everyone keeps talking of college and next year in Lynchburg- and to be quite honest, I really wish I was staying here just another year. I don't feel prepared- I think I've let myself down. It has nothing to do with Sweet Briar, that's where I want to go, blah it's confusing. I don't even wish I was in high school- that's odd. Maybe it just hasn't hit me yet, but I'm not sad, I don't feel like a chapter of my life has closed for good. High school fucking sucked. I hated everyone- it's teeming with fake annoying people who have no idea where they are going, so to diffuse this, they get fucked up during weekends. I feel out of place towards my peers. I wish I could say it's maturity, but sadly enough, that would be a lie.